A Journey to Death and Life

In this article Glenda tells the story of how God used the tragedy of her husband's death to transform and comfort her.

"Our God is an awesome God. He reigns from heaven above. With Wisdom, Power, and Love. Our God is an awesome God." Song by Rich Mullins

A couple of years ago, I married a man who had been a minister of the Gospel of Jesus Christ for over 60 years.  He moved to Florida, where I lived, and we started our happy journey.  We would read books and the Word of God together. We would sing the old gospel songs together.  One night he woke me up praying in his heavenly language while weeping and laughing.  This went on quite a while and then he turned over to me and continued.  I laid in awe listening to this wonderful man commune with God.  It seemed as if our dreams of living the last part of our lives would be a happy time in the Lord.

Within a couple of months he became sick.  He spent a few nights in the hospital. Upon returning home, he said he wasn’t going to the doctor.  He believed God would heal him.  As time went by, he began to have serious issues so he decided to cooperate and do what needed to be done.

We had been married for over a year when he was diagnosed with cancer. 
From that time forward, his body deteriorated and he had to go stay where
he could get the help that he needed.  I didn’t understand any of this because
it wasn’t what we had planned. I kept asking God ‘why’ and He gave me
the Scripture “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your
own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5 NKJV).  I settled in to caring for my husband to the best of my ability.

As time went on, many changes happened and I experienced a journey that was straight from the throne room of God. As my husband laid in that bed he sang gospel songs, he laughed and cried, he took imaginary communion, he preached, he spoke in his heavenly language while looking straight at God.  He gave me the most beautiful word from the Lord that I had ever heard.  I felt like I was standing before God and He was talking directly to me.

As I sat by my husband, I would weep from the beauty that I saw surrounding Him from the heavens. He never complained nor asked for anything.  It was a journey that changed my whole life.  I felt like I had been ‘born again’ for the second time.  I saw that when you start to transition to the spirit world, there is NO stopping or
coming back.  It is then TOO late if you are not ready to go into eternity.

My heart became so conscious of the many souls that weren’t ready to meet God and I would weep uncontrollably.  I realized that nothing in this world that we would do was more important than going out into our world and telling the good news of Jesus.

When my husband passed on to the next world, I could almost hear him shouting victory and I knew that he also was kneeling at his Saviors’ feet.  Now I am very somber and anxious to do the work that my Father has for me to do.  I want to hear His voice saying. “Well done, thou good and faithful servant” (Matthew 25:21).

I have a question for you. Have you taken time out from your busy days and or schedule to reflect on what you are really supposed to be doing in your christian walk?  It's not about pomp or circumstance, but it’s about going to the cross daily and laying yourself all out to our Lord.

I pray that God, our Father, will lead you down a path that will make Himself more real to you than ever before. May God bless you and keep you.  May he cause His face to shine upon you and give you peace (Numbers 6:24).

Article by Glenda Blakkolb